I've started reading the journal, ' A Woman In Berlin '; a record of life between April 20th and June 22nd 1945 as the Russian army encircled then captured the city. 8 weeks of a life. Friday, 20 April 1945, 4 P.M. Rummaging through the few books owned by the tenant of this apartment (where I also found the blank notebook I'm using to write this), I turned up a novel. The setting is English aristocratic, with sentences like: ' She cast a fleeting glance at her untouched meal, then rose and left the table .' Ten lines later I found myself magnetically drawn back to that sentence. I must have read it a dozen times before I caught myself scratching my nails across the print, as if the untouched meal which had just been described in detail was really there and I could physically scrape it out of the book. A sure sign of insanity. Onset of mild delusions brought on by lack of food. The book was published anonymously in Germany in 1959 then withdrawn after an extreme